Bad Numerology?... Meaning and how does it get better?
Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2017 9:47 am
Hi everyone,
I recently looked up the numerology of my name and date of birth, and was very upset with what my numbers meant. I tried looking on a bunch of sites to try to make more meaning of it, by my numbers are really bizarre:
Motivation/Soul Urge/Heart's Desire: 7
Inner Self/Personality: 8
Expression/Destiny: 6
Karmic Lessons: 2, 4, 6, 8
Hidden Tendencies: 5
Subconscious Response: 5
Life Path: 22
There are so many things that irk me about this.
What irks me the most is not only do I have four karmic lessons (when most seem to have 1, 2, or even 3), but that all of them are EVENS. I've read somewhere that once you have three or more karmic lessons, to focus on your strengths instead and let the lessons work themselves out. The problem is that NONE of my supposed strengths are next to each other (all "strengths" are separated by the even numbered weaknesses). I read one site where someone had only three strengths, but at least they were all next to each other and she was able to accept herself partly because she had such focused gifts in one area. Instead mine are so scattered.
The numbers in my name play out to this:
Three 1s
Two 3s
Seven 5s
One 7
Three 9s
On top of this I read that it's bad to have too many fives (impulsiveness and such, which is odd because I don't overindulge in sex, spending, or drinking, and I don't even smoke, do drugs, or gamble at all).
What upsets me next is that I read that my Soul Urge, Personality, and Destiny all contradict each other. And as someone who was very aware even as a young kid that I felt I needed to do something in this life and had (and still have a strong feeling) a feeling to revamp the whole system from the most inside outward just exasperates the stress I regularly feel from my internal conflict.
Also, my life path reduced equals 4, which is a karmic lesson, and my destiny and personality numbers are also karmic lessons. I feel like I can't manifest anything. And while I've tried working on issues like patience, hard work, emotional honesty, responsibility etc, for years, they are still just as much problems for me as they were at the beginning.
Essentially, the numbers really happen to reflect who I am. I often feel like I have an important purpose on this earth, feel that I'm very intuitive, but feel so much inner conflict between parts of me. I stress out easily, which is the 5 subconscious response. And I get so discouraged and upset because over decades I've seen others not have to work nearly as hard to achieve great things, while I feel myself slugging through with all my energy to not get nearly as far. I'll be turning 30 in a few months... help!
I recently looked up the numerology of my name and date of birth, and was very upset with what my numbers meant. I tried looking on a bunch of sites to try to make more meaning of it, by my numbers are really bizarre:
Motivation/Soul Urge/Heart's Desire: 7
Inner Self/Personality: 8
Expression/Destiny: 6
Karmic Lessons: 2, 4, 6, 8
Hidden Tendencies: 5
Subconscious Response: 5
Life Path: 22
There are so many things that irk me about this.
What irks me the most is not only do I have four karmic lessons (when most seem to have 1, 2, or even 3), but that all of them are EVENS. I've read somewhere that once you have three or more karmic lessons, to focus on your strengths instead and let the lessons work themselves out. The problem is that NONE of my supposed strengths are next to each other (all "strengths" are separated by the even numbered weaknesses). I read one site where someone had only three strengths, but at least they were all next to each other and she was able to accept herself partly because she had such focused gifts in one area. Instead mine are so scattered.
The numbers in my name play out to this:
Three 1s
Two 3s
Seven 5s
One 7
Three 9s
On top of this I read that it's bad to have too many fives (impulsiveness and such, which is odd because I don't overindulge in sex, spending, or drinking, and I don't even smoke, do drugs, or gamble at all).
What upsets me next is that I read that my Soul Urge, Personality, and Destiny all contradict each other. And as someone who was very aware even as a young kid that I felt I needed to do something in this life and had (and still have a strong feeling) a feeling to revamp the whole system from the most inside outward just exasperates the stress I regularly feel from my internal conflict.
Also, my life path reduced equals 4, which is a karmic lesson, and my destiny and personality numbers are also karmic lessons. I feel like I can't manifest anything. And while I've tried working on issues like patience, hard work, emotional honesty, responsibility etc, for years, they are still just as much problems for me as they were at the beginning.
Essentially, the numbers really happen to reflect who I am. I often feel like I have an important purpose on this earth, feel that I'm very intuitive, but feel so much inner conflict between parts of me. I stress out easily, which is the 5 subconscious response. And I get so discouraged and upset because over decades I've seen others not have to work nearly as hard to achieve great things, while I feel myself slugging through with all my energy to not get nearly as far. I'll be turning 30 in a few months... help!