Perhaps you are trying too hard to get your point across to others ? Looking at your Progressed chart (with Prog. Saturn conj. Prog. 7th/relationships with others) it seems that you need to slow down and really think before you speak. Really listen to what others are saying (or trying to say or tell you) before you reply and before you assume that they’re getting at you or dismissing your words.
Yes, you’re frustrated, but you might be making assumptions about what people mean, or you’re already in defence mode before they even speak ?
You ask “when all these will stop”, but it will only do so when you start to look within and examine what it is that you might be doing that creates this kind of reaction from others. In other words, try to shift your viewpoint and try to get yourself out of this defensive mode. Yes, I know this is really hard to do but nothing will change until you change.
There’s no doubt that you are going through a very very hard and trying time and I’m not trying belittle your experiences in any way. But there’s no use in my attempting to predict “when it will end”, as you just have to go through it and understand that it’s all happening ‘for a reason’, rather than the Universe being just out to get at you or punish you. The sooner you accept this, the easier it will become and the quicker you’ll see the point of it all.
Really, this is a massive opportunity for you to discover your strengths, as well as your weaknesses, so that you can move forward in a direction that is right for you, and in a way that bring circumstances and others on your side.
No, it’s not easy, and although it may not help immediately, so many are going through incredibly difficult times with these current transits. For you it seems that your primary need is to
slow down, think carefully before you speak or act. You need to concentrate on your own goals for their own sake, and try not expect the approval or praise of others so that when you don’t receive it you get more depressed and frustrated.
Not much to ask ?
Yes, I know it does seem so, but there it is, so you (like all of us) just have to get on with it to the very best of your ability. (What a Lecture !
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Your Relocation Chart suggests that relationships with others are very much tied in with your need for public approval and acceptance, but again, also that you may be mis-reading or misunderstanding the responses you are receiving. Are you trying to appear to others that you are intellectually superior or know more than you do ? Maybe not, but if so this could actually be a cover-up for a deeper fear that you really don’t know enough, which is something that you may always feel, with the result that you try to ‘know’/learn/study too much in order to compensate or prove yourself and your worth. Possibly you swing from over-confidence to a complete lack of confidence ?
On a brighter note (sapleo heaves a sigh of relief ?), your Solar Return for this year does promise considerable success and even a sudden shift in your situation – if you make the effort towards more self-awareness about these current issues you are having to deal with.
Please do let me know your thoughts on this, if of course you wish to do so.
Best,
Admin.