Hi kolani,
Saturn connections can, of course be ...fraught!
When someone's Saturn conjoins one's Midheaven, they are going to test you, and specifically test the strength of your goal in life, who you are 'out there' in the world. He/she will make demands on you and try to make you 'prove' yourself. You may find that he/she doesn't give recognition for your efforts and accomplishments (depends on the aspects to Saturn).(This can be reveresed: ie. the Midheaven person might be testing the Saturn person ?).
'That' person's Saturn in 4th is looking for the 'other' person to express his/her needs, 'out there' somehow.
And with 'the Midheaven person's N. Node falling in Saturn person's 4th House'...this will lead the 4th-House person on to more than - possibly - he/she may be ready to deal with. However, that person will 'know', somewhere in their being, that - whatever it is - it's 'right'.
However...sigh...Saturn teaches SO much! (And worthwhile, of course

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Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities have crept in. Forget them...Tomorrow is a New Day. Emerson.