Karmic relationship or obsession? Please help
Posted: Wed May 15, 2019 9:49 pm
Hi!
I´m dealing with this issue for almost 20 years and still can`t get rid of this intense feelings in my life. I had this boyfriend as a teenager, it was love at first side for both of us, but very traumatic and painful experience, which ended tragically with his car accident, which he survived but some of his friends were killed - he was the driver. Everything changed after that, he moved away and started a new life, he left everything old behind, including me. We`re both transformed after that, changes were significant. He got married later and have a family. I moved on with my life, but even after all those years (almost 20!!) I still can`t forget him. Even when I`m not thinking about him for a while, I start having this vivid dreams about him and I`m at the beginning again. I somehow believe I was the love of his life and I cling to that since we`re apart. I have two kids myself and live normal life with my partner which I respect a lot, everything seems normal at the outside, but inside of me is this battle with this old feelings, that I can`t handle anymore. I still have this beautiful neptuniun dream in my head, that he is my destiny and there`ll be the day we`ll meet again. We haven`t met for almost 20 years. Everything`s keep coming back to me and it`s really hard to live like this. It feels like obssesion.
Is there someone who would look at our synastry chart and tell me what is this obssesion about. It would be easier for me to know if this is one sided obsession or are this feeling mutual for both of us. We`ll we meet again in this lifetime? Please take a look at our synastry (I`m outside) and composite chart.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Me: 9.8.1981 6:50
he: 18.10.1979 9:50
I´m dealing with this issue for almost 20 years and still can`t get rid of this intense feelings in my life. I had this boyfriend as a teenager, it was love at first side for both of us, but very traumatic and painful experience, which ended tragically with his car accident, which he survived but some of his friends were killed - he was the driver. Everything changed after that, he moved away and started a new life, he left everything old behind, including me. We`re both transformed after that, changes were significant. He got married later and have a family. I moved on with my life, but even after all those years (almost 20!!) I still can`t forget him. Even when I`m not thinking about him for a while, I start having this vivid dreams about him and I`m at the beginning again. I somehow believe I was the love of his life and I cling to that since we`re apart. I have two kids myself and live normal life with my partner which I respect a lot, everything seems normal at the outside, but inside of me is this battle with this old feelings, that I can`t handle anymore. I still have this beautiful neptuniun dream in my head, that he is my destiny and there`ll be the day we`ll meet again. We haven`t met for almost 20 years. Everything`s keep coming back to me and it`s really hard to live like this. It feels like obssesion.
Is there someone who would look at our synastry chart and tell me what is this obssesion about. It would be easier for me to know if this is one sided obsession or are this feeling mutual for both of us. We`ll we meet again in this lifetime? Please take a look at our synastry (I`m outside) and composite chart.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Me: 9.8.1981 6:50
he: 18.10.1979 9:50